I have so many thoughts and emotions going through my head so I figured I would just write it all down. Those that know me, know that I don’t have a lot of love for myself, and I never really feel proud of myself. I am working on that. It is really hard for me to take compliments. Also, when I make goals and then don’t reach them by the time I have set out to reach them — I get disappointed in myself, and kinda beat myself up.
The most recent FIT challenge has just come to a close. The goals that I set for myself were the following: Lose 10 lbs of weight, and down 2% body fat. Well — what actually happened was I ended up down 9.1 lbs of weight, and down 1.9% body fat. I should have immediately been really proud of what I accomplished, but I wasn’t. Why??
We are all our own worst critic. I feel so lucky to have so many close friends and immediate family that tell me all the time how great I’m doing, and that I’m amazing. When they tell me these things, I usually just brush it off, probably roll my eyes, and say thanks. To all of you — I’m sorry that it is so hard for me to take compliments. In my heart, I really love having others notice my progress, because it feels really good. However, in my head — I don’t BELIEVE in myself, so therefore not in agreement with the compliments. I am working on this, because it really does all start and end in your mind. Believing that you can do it, believing that you deserve it, and believing that you will get it.
The next FIT challenge starts in approximately 5 weeks — a lot of changes have already started in my mindset. I will be proud of myself through all of my accomplishments — small or large. I can do this!! I’m half way through the 10K challenge through FXB. I want to win this! I need to buckle down my nutrition and have very minimal cheats. I know that I need to tweak a couple things with my nutrition, but I also know that I have the support to help me kill these last 6 months of the 10K challenge!!!
More to come soon about other new happenings in my gym life. Stay tuned 🙂